All my sand castles fall..

All my sand castles fall
Like the ashes of cigarettes
And every wave drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing
To no one but me?

And if you sing to me sweet until then
I may never sail Virginia again
And as this current moves slow for me
This much you must know
We'll meet again
And I'll, I'll have you know I'm scared to death

Tell me once again
That you'll love me to the death
And should I die
You swear that you will come for me
As I fade away, you reach out your arms
(And please don't let me go)
And please don't let me go
(And please don't let me go)
And please don't let me go

And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's
Sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall
Like the ashes of cigarettes
And every wave drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question
"Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence mean nothing
To no one but me?-Mayday

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?


What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees


What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
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Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?


What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love.. Addison road.

I think that sometimes, I make God way to small and that there are moments that I forget just how holy God is. I think it is incredible that I can go a whole day without even thinking about God. Something that big, shouldn't be that easy to put in the back of my mind.

So I say this. Let go, Move forward, and Love God. I am called to have a much deeper relationship with Jesus than just treating him like a good friend.

Let go. Move Forward. Remember what God did for you, and love him every single day.

It is a tad bit scary knowing that is it only the second week of school, and already I can feel that closeness I had with God this summer fading. Move forward.

From sunrise to sunset help me not forget all that you've done for me
From sunset to sunrise help me keep my eyes upon your glory


Warner Camp is where it is at, this summer was one of my all time favorite summers ever. I learned a lot about ministry, a lot about God and so much about myself. It was so nice to go almost 6 hours away from the comforts of my home and into a new place with new people to experience God in a new way.

I will be back at ccu on saturday, I think I am ready for it :) but we will see.

I will update about my life someday...

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Warning: this is super girly.

Everyone around me seems to be in a hurry to find "the one" that they are going to spend the rest of their lives with. (Not everyone) but a lot of people. I do go to a christian university where the pressure seems to be a little bit more intense. At times I get annoyed with the ones that date for like two weeks and are super crazy in love with each other.But then, there are times where I see two people get together, and fall in love in a few months. Back in the day I believed that you had to be with someone for a year or so before you knew if you were in love or whatever. But for some, I have watched them meet and fall in love and just know, that that person was meant for them. To me that's beautiful. I am not certain of many things so its hard for me to understand how sure someone can be that they have met "the one" but I think, that when you know you know. It doesn't have to be as complicated as we all make it...It doesn't take years to figure out. When you find someone that makes you happy, someone that has the same values, someone that just feels right. I think you just know. Right now in my life, i am very much single and pretty certain I will not be settling down anytime soon (because I just don't feel like its time for me to date, but we wont get into that) but when I do begin dating... It doesn't have to be such a complicated thing, like I have made it out to be in the past. Love shouldn't be rushed, pressured, or crazy complicated. It should just be right.

"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires" Songs of Songs 8:4



there, that's all I have right now :)


So we lie here in the dark
All the wrong things on fire
In sickness and in health
To be with you, just to be with you

In your wedding dress
To have and to hold
'Cause even at my best
I wanna let go

And you hold me in your arms
And all that I can see
Is my future in your hands
And all that I can feel
Is how long ever after is
It's all that I can do
To be with you, just to be with you

In your wedding dress
To have and to hold
'Cause even at my best
I wanna let go

Thought I'd lost you
Thought I'd lost you
I gave you away
Thought I'd lost you
I'm jealous of the moon
For how it moves the waves

'Cause in your wedding dress
To have and to hold
'Cause even at my best
I wanna let go

And I wanna be somebody else now
And I wanna thicken my skin
And I wanna wish it all
Just wish it all away again- Matt Nathanson

Wasted

It's 2:45 the baby takes his 1st breath
the mother never knew he only had a few left
and the father gets a call in the middle of the night
his breath gets short and his chest gets tight

But he's 16 and he's driving too fast
takes a turn to the left, it would be his last
Nobody knows what happens if he turns to the right
Nobody in the car would've died that night

But he's 32 and invincible
the cancer he had, it was visceral
he never saw it coming
thought he had his whole life
sick in the morning and he died in the night

We're all so
We're on the line
We're all
We're all [oh]
We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted

He's 7 years old, got his bat in his hand
he's looking for his father and he doesn't understand
'cause dad's too busy, got some deals on the way
his son sits alone as the children play

And he's 18 he couldn't wait to move out
his parents wonder what all the rush is about
they never bothered with his dreams only thinking of theirs
wonders why he doesn't call and why he doesn't care

But he's 32 and invincible with
everything he is based on principle
he never had a truly happy moment in his life
he didn't want the kids and he didn't want his wife

We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted, no no
We're all wasted
We're wasted
We're all wasted
We're all wasted, no no
We're all wasted

23 now, got his life in his hands
he's looking all around and he doesn't understand
'cause life's too busy, things get in the way
we all feel alone every single day

and I'm 18 and couldn't wait to move out
it's been five years and now I'm starting to doubt
whether all my dreams are just aimless stares
looking off to someplace that isn’t there

when I'm 32 well I'll be miserable with
everything around based on principle
well, i have a clue, oh wouldn't it be nice
to never be alone in this wasted life

We're wasted, no no no
We're all wasted-cartel

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there


It was a straight faced lie
I believed
It was a straight faced lie
You would ever leave me
So for now I'll keep believing your words
Soon enough my strength will return

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there

Let me draw the blinds for you
You can watch the sunset from
The bed in your hospital room
Until you're sleeping
I'm sure
I don't understand how I found a love so pure

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there
And I'll be right there

Don't lift a finger
Let me show you
The only way to let this go
Don't lift a finger
Let me hold you
Hold you here until the pain it has all gone

I'll take care of you oh
Have faith that when you call my name
I'll be there
And I'll be right there
So keep breathing oh
Keep that sweet heart of yours beating
I'll be right there
I'll be right there(copeland)

I know that there is more to life than what is around me, there are people that need to be loved, fixed and hearts that need to me mended. I'm tired of worrying about the stresses of life, I'm tired of worrying about what people think of me, and I'm tired of living life like I'm promised tomorrow. There is more to this life,I mean there has to be..right?

So tomorrow isn't promised, might as well live this day like tomorrow doesn't exist.